I frequently find myself drifting back to memories from this time a year ago, when I was so blissfully unaware what was just a week ahead of me.
It's like she's still out there, the year ago me. Somewhere on the time continuum she is tidying up the wrapping paper from her daughters first christmas and discussing baby names with her husband for their unborn child. She's happy and in love. And I want to hold her hand as she begins to face the pain ahead of her, the months of being strung along, the awkwardness of finding herself pregnant and alone. But I can't. Instead I whisper to the wind:
We never know how high we are
till we are called to rise
and then if we are true to plan
our statures touch the skies
(emily dickenson)
Let's hope that 2010 will be safely filed away forever as the worst year of my life.
Only onwards and upwards for 2011 please! No more looking back, there are new frontiers ahead of me: Home owning, raising two children, figuring out what kind of a career I want (now that I'm all grown up), and who knows, maybe I may enter into the scary world of dating this year...
Thank you all so much for your support and listening ears this year, It's meant a lot.
xo
13 comments:
Lovely poem.
You suffered deeply but rebounded mightily!
Here's hoping your 2011 is filled with healing and joy.
Happy New Year!
Here's to a great 2011! Sending lots of hugs to you and the wee ones.
You are often in my prayers.
K. Waters
It will be fabulous, Happy 2011!
Love that poem
Happy new year and heres to a much better 2011
you're amazing. AMAZING. <3.
happy 2011 to you!
"It's like she's still out there, the year ago me" I can relate in so many levels... for me is the 2 year ago me... sometimes I miss her! Hope that 2011 is the best year ever for you. I admire you so muc
Great poem, great post.
Cheers to you and your children!
Vivi
Hi, I've been following your blog for a few months, and have never commented. Don't even remember how I came across it, but I admire your strength in the past year, and you have definitely inspired me, a Canadian in Winnipeg, Manitoba, who ended a marriage in 2010, resigned from one job, started another (stressful) one, and who found herself again a single parent, albeit with a teenage son, not two younglings. I congratulate you, and thank you for some very brave words. You've seriously made me rethink what courage means! Happy New Year!
Hi, I've been following your blog for a few months, and have never commented. Don't even remember how I came across it, but I admire your strength in the past year, and you have definitely inspired me, a Canadian in Winnipeg, Manitoba, who ended a marriage in 2010, resigned from one job, started another (stressful) one, and who found herself again a single parent, albeit with a teenage son, not two younglings. I congratulate you, and thank you for some very brave words. You've seriously made me rethink what courage means! Happy New Year!
i like you a lot. have i told you that lately? i can't wait to hear about more of your house re-doing adventures. and pics of finch...i bet that boy has grown so much!
miss you. go get 'em tiger.
Well your stature has definitely touched the skies!! I am sure 2011 will have some fab things in it for you.
Step forward with pride.
Absolutely! An amazing 2011 to you, Alli. You're a strong, beautiful woman with so much to offer the world.
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